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A little about me

I am a single mom raising 2 amazing kids named Braylin-10 and Sadie-7. These last few years Ive been trying my hand at building up my own business called Grand Slam Cleaning. I live in a vacation area therefore work is not steady once the season has ended. I LOVE to write, draw/sketch and be creative which it all lead me to creating my own blogging page for others to read and relate. When my kids were younger I spent  most of my time away from them. When I woke up for work it was dark and when I got home from work it was dark as well. I wasn't the mom that got to wake them up, make and feed them breakfast, help with homework after school, cook dinner, give baths and at times reading that bedtime story while tucking them into bed. I literally spent 8 hours at work and 3 hours driving to and from work. I was that mom missing out on all those precious moments and all those milestones and memories I couldn't get back. Then one day it was like I woke up all of a sudden and realized I needed to find a way to continue to provide for my family but also be home to create memories and just be with my kids. I will never forget the day that I was able to get off work and be home before it was dark. I walked in the front door and my son turns around looks at me with the most joyful, excited and enthusiastic facial expressions and says, "OMG mom your home and it's not dark outside! Does this mean we get to play outside with you, eat dinner with you and give us baths before bed?" I starting crying and I knew from that day forward my kids and I would be able to make memories and cross milestones happily alongside one another. 

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